Part 3: The Long Journey Home Begins
- Kimberly Davis
- May 1, 2025
- 6 min read
Updated: 9 hours ago
My Long Journey Home to Judaism: Part 3
The Long Journey Home Begins
It was in that small coffee shop in the middle of a Jewish town that my long journey home to Judaism began. Looking back, I see that Hashem could have brought me to Himself through my Jewish friend. He could have brought me the short way home. But He didn’t.
Instead, just like when He brought the Israelites out of Egypt, Hashem chose to take me the long way home. It is as if He dropped me off right where my family (seemingly) left Him, and has walked me backwards through their steps until I finally reached Him--Until He finally brought a daughter of one of the Lost Tribes of Israel home to the Jewish faith, where I belong, just as He had promised to do.
This journey of faith has been long. It has been filled with hate, abuse, harassment, stalking, theft, copy write infringements, wars, murder attempts on my life, antisemitism, removal of civil liberties, and other unspeakable terrors—mainly at the hands of people within various churches, or secular people whom (I have a sense) have been paid off to do their dirty work.
But, my faith journey has also been filled with love, and hope, and joy, and life. It is not the path I had set for myself when I made the trek to New York almost 10 years ago. But, it is the path perfectly designed by my loving Creator, Hashem, the One True G-d, the G-d of Israel.
As such, as I have walked this long road over the last (almost) 8 years, I have become (I fear) a walking example of everything I feared could come to pass in the paper I wrote those many moons ago in my writing class at Columbia.
Year after year, the deeper and deeper I draw into my Jewish faith, and live as a Jewish woman, the more and more the ugly parallels are drawn between the horrors of Hitler and the modern day and age.
In the Deep South, the Bible Belt has become a noose that is constantly tied around my neck. One wrong move, one wrong public declaration or display of my Jewishness, and the belt is ever tightened. Dead, it seems it has been decided (mainly by church members), is how I, as a Jew, must live.
While death would certainly let me live in Gan Eden, I trust Hashem has a plan for all He has allowed in my journey thus far. Like every Jew, Hashem allows our enemies to attack in order that:
He can gain renown for Himself when we survive despite all odds and
The Jewish people can receive strength and power to, in the end, over take those who wish us harm (Deuteronomy 2-3; Exodus).
While the abuse, harassment, and antisemitism has been hellish to deal with, it is the precise tool which Hashem has used to bring me to my Jewish roots, His Jewish Faith, and a life lived (as best I can within the confines of circumstances) by His Torah.
You see, the more and more I was (and still am) persecuted in and by members of the church, the more and more questions I had. Hashem showed me what true love of the soul should feel like, and the “love” I was given and the “love” I was taught in the church pews certainly was not it. It most certainly was not of Hashem.
The abuse within the church started almost immediately after I joined (then left) the small beach town congregation. I was with them for only about 6 months before I had to leave New York and move back to the South.
It was the summer of 2019, and the first type of congregation that Hashem had me walk through was the charismatic churches. After theft and use of my work without pay nor permission, I knew something was not right. Then COVID hit and the lockdowns began.
With the COVID lockdowns in high gear, I became locked into Hashem’s word. I studied day in and day out. He was faithful to begin revealing false truths in some of the charismatic teachings I was receiving, and so I promptly stopped following such preachers.
After researching other sects of the church, Hashem led me to the Reformed theologian pastors. Shortly after being led to them, January 6th happened. I am not sure what prompted me to write 5 of these pastors an email seeking guidance, but after seeing them all together at a conference online, write an email I did.
Maybe it was that the world seemed so out of control, so I thought that asking for help from the supposed "giants of the Reformed movement" would help clarify some things. I will not go into detail, nor name names for now, but by writing that email the door of abuse for the past 5 years was opened.
Since writing that email, I have been stalked, harassed, had people sent to my work to harass me at jobs. I’ve had death threats sent to my house. I've had people from the church act on threats and attempt murder. These pastors have stalked websites I’ve created for teaching purposes and have used my work without any permission or credit. Once I started proclaiming the Jewishness of faith in the Jewish Messiah, my work was then used as an attack point for antisemitic rhetoric to spew from their pulpits.
My work, when used was always guised as their own work, or the work of some famous male preacher. They could not admit they were using the work of a woman.
I must clarify that the use of my work is not the issue. It is the theft of my work that I, and Hashem, have an issue with. These pastors claim to follow the scriptures. Do they not know, "Thou shall not steal"? Nor, "Oppress the poor, widow, or orphan"? Nor, "Withhold wages by fraud"? Do they not know that one day every person from every nation will be brought to valley of Jehoshaphat and be judged my how they treated the Jewish people and Israel, the Jewish Nation?
The response to such questions is always that their sins have been washed clean by the blood of the J-man. Meaning (most straight-forwardly) by the blood of a dead Jew. To them, all of the laws of Hashem have been fulfilled by this dead Jew, so there is no need to follow Torah.
What about accountability? What about the fact that the only way to receive blessings from Hashem is by keeping Torah (on your own) (Deuteronomy 11; 27)? What about the fact that Hashem has declared that, "No man can die for the sins of another. Every person must die for their own sins"? Their reasonings to justify theft and abuse, were some of the foundational theological points that had me question almost everything I was hearing in the church.
Anyway, I would point out such facts like these from Torah often. And as such I was named a heretic after the likes of Jezebel, who tried to kill the prophets of Hashem. In the eyes of the giants: they are the prophets of Hashem. And I, well, I'm evidently a harlot heretic for daring to speak Hashem's truth.
As such, though the pastors were in California, Florida, Pennsylvania, and Texas, they contacted pastors connected to their affiliated ministries in my area to stalk me, track my movements, and thwart my so-called rebellion of the truth. But, as the abuse went on and on, I dug deeper and deeper into Hashem’s truth.
By 2021, I was adamant that that faith in the so-called Christian god was faith in the Jewish Messiah. Though this false god is not (and cannot be) the Jewish Messiah, nor “the sacrifice for sin” (I will hopefully teach more on that in other educational sections), I kept seeking truths about the supposed Jewish roots to this faith.
As I dug deeper and deeper, and proclaimed more adamantly the Jewishness of G-d, I was also convinced that faith in the Jewish G-d would necessitate that faith in the Messiah of the Jewish people would mean having a Jewish faith as well. This clarity of vision brought on even more vitriol and antisemitic rhetoric from the pulpits.
After being stalked at one of my jobs and pop-up shops, I was then eventually led to a Messianic Congregation.
Once there, I spoke about my faith and that is when my questions really started to arise. As I proclaimed the Jewishness of my faith in the so-called “Jewish Messiah”to Jewish converts of Christianity, I was derided like no other, chided and told to change my beliefs. This made no sense to me.
If Jews who believed in the Messiah of the Jewish people vehemently denied that such faith makes a person Jewish, then certainly, something is severely amiss with the Christian faith.
Am Yisrael Chai!
by Kimberly Davis
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